Thursday, March 6, 2008


My sick babies this morning
Look at that red nose & sad eyes

Does this baby look sick to u?The only HAPPY Baby!


As you all have read the boys have been sick. I thought things where getting better, but I was wrong! Yesterday we had a little set back. David is out of time (just for 2 days, 1 night), and the boys where in rare form. They where very fussy yesterday during the day. Not wanting to be put down I was in between a rock and a hard place! My Aunt Terri came around 4pm to help me out...but again...they cried and cried and cried. This continued until around 8pm. After my Aunt and Thomas left I put all three babies to sleep. After 15 minutes or so Max cried. I went up stairs tapped his bottom(it soothes them) and he fell back to sleep. 15 minutes later, he cried again...I repeated the motion...tap, tap, tap...sleep. Meanwhile I was cleaning up, spraying Lysol on everything, getting the water boiled for the next day, running the dishwasher, doing the laundry and getting the garbage out. Amongst other things that I do every night. Most people know this by now but I have terrible OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder), my house is always spotless, everything in it's place. Although since the babies where born it has subsided a little bit, but not much! So anyway, this crying, tapping, sleeping thing went on for about 2 hours. After finally hearing from David, I finally decided to go to bed around 12 am. No sooner did I lay my head on the pillow did Max start to scream again. I knew he wasn't feeling well...the crust around his eyes and nose was forming, his eyes where watering and he was congested. I put him in bed with me, thinking this might help him didn't. We went from upstairs to downstairs from the swing to the crib to my bed. Nothing was helping. He was screaming! I tried Tylenol, a warm wash cloth rub down and rocking...for hours...nothing! Finally, 3am my darling Max falls asleep. I just rest my head down on the pillow and ...................................WAAAAAAAAAAA! Alex starts screaming! I give him a baba, hoping he is just a little hungry. Should I be so lucky? Nope...Alex wants to talk, he coos, caas, Opas and refuses to go to sleep. I put him in the crib, he screams, in my bed...he pinches and then screams. We go down stairs...he screams. Again, I try Tylenol, a warm wash cloth rub down and rocking...for hours....nothing! Finally, he falls asleep in the swing. In the meantime, I am freaking out because Max is on my bed. Just then......................WAAAAAAAAAAAA! Max is awake!

I call David who is Washington D.C. for a conference. I'm not sure if I needed moral support or if I wanted to wake his butt up...I mean the nerve of him getting sleep! hahahahaaha, just kidding. I needed support. For the first time since they have been born, I felt myself loosing control. I can't believe i was feeling that way. It wasn't like I was going to do something stupid, it was more like I felt myself wanting to I did. I cried, I prayed and I let my children cry for a few minutes until I regained my composure. I than put them in their swings and let them cry themselves to sleep. It only took a few moments but it seemed like a lifetime.

I sat up in the then quiet living room and looked at the clock, it was 6:47am. The sun had risen and I could hear the traffic picking up outside. I thought, "If I lay my head down, i can get 1 hour of sleep before Austin has to get up for school". Just than, I hear "Mommy, are you down there?". He was up! And so was Emerson, My two boys who seemed virtually unfazed by last nights events where awake. Happy, smiling, little angels, so bright eyed and happy to see Mommy! Like every morning, wanting breakfast. I stood up, rubbed my eyes and tended to my children....doing what I do best...being a Mom, no matter what time of the day or night.

Last nights events where my first true test as a mother. I think I passed with flying colors. Everyone survived the night, including me, tattered, torn and exhausted. Right now, I can be found lying on the floor with my sleeping babies, typing this blog rather than sleeping because I know if I close my will begin again! I wouldn't change it for the world! Oh crap....THEY'RE UP! Here we go again!