A Love Letter

For the longest time I remeber people bragging about their children saying oh Billy did this and Bobby said this and little Suzy is sooooo smart. I thought to myself I would never be that kind of bragger and yet I find myself bragging daily about the accomplishments of my 4 amazing children. I have realized that when the parents are bragging they are just telling people how much THEY LOVE THEIR CHILDREN. Maybe they need to stop trying to convince other people and start telling their children how much they truly love them and how proud they are. Someday I plan to give this blog to my children. I want them to know step by step the first few years of their lives and someday soon I am going to chronicle the whole polish adoption process for Austin and when I do I want them to know how much I loved and love them. So these are love letters to my children:



Austin-

I know sometime I'm short with you. I don't spend as much time telling you I love you as I do yelling at you. The truth is I look at those beautiful hazel eyes and I melt. I see this incredible young man who is so smart and inquizative and I think what did I do to deserve such an amazing child. You see I know you where sent to us. You may have not come from my belly but you definately came from my heart. Your father and I prayed for a special child to love and care for and God sent us you. I want you to know I wouldn't change anything. If I had to go back to Poland and start all over again I would do it in a heart beat. Be patient with me, I am doing the best I can. I promise someday it will get better. Your brothers will be more independent and you and I can start our dates again. I love you so much I am so glad you are my son.

Your Mother



Emerson-

I look at you and think what will he be when he grows up, a doctor, a lawyer, a husband, a father, all the above or something completely different. All I know is you will be someone amazing. You have this quiet intensity that leads me to believe your contiplating taking over the world. My incredibly beautiful child know that your Mommy lives and breathes for you. I can't believe that someone so incredible came from my body. You look at me like I have all the answers, I don't. I will make mistakes and have all the wrong answers but I will try my best to be the best Mom I can be. I love you so much and I am so glad that you are also my son.

Your Mother



Maxim-

My perfect angel. When I'm feeling bad or sad I take one look at you and I feel the love. You make me smile like I never have before. You are so smart that I know you will be independent before your brothers. You won't need me like they do and that scares me. For now I will soak in every moment with you. Every croked smile I will cherish, every giggle every smerk. You are a piece of my heart that I can never put into words. I can't imagine you not in my life. You are what I created and I promise you all of me, always.I love you so much and I'm so glad you are also my son.

Your Mother

Alexander-

I am so in love with you. That amzing little giggle turns me back into a child. I want to eat you up. You are so innocent, so beautiful, so perfect. Everything anbout me and your father that is good. I know you are going to be so strong when you grow up. You have come such a long way already I see only amazing things in your future. You, your brothers and your father are the loves of my life. I love you so muchand I'm so glad that you are also my son.

Your Mother

I hope you all understand that your father and I are doing the best that we can. Our love is so strong yet we will make bad desions along the way. All we can do is our best to give you all you need. I will do my part by teaching you to love and respect everyone around you. I will protect you the best I can and my love will never change for you. You are now and will always be the best things that have ever happened to me.